Turn mourning into dancing… (Psalm 30) 290208
Today is 29th of February 2008, it only occurs once every four years. It is a leap day! What so special about leap day? Nothing, it is just like any other day which God has created. No day is special unless God is glorified that day, but since everyday God is being glorified because of what He has done on the Cross, then everyday is special.
Whether a day is going to be special or not, it does not matter if it is a leap day or not. It is special to me if I recognize God’s presence and work is in my life. Today can be the worst day of my life, but it can also be the best day too. It will be the worst day for me if my father has to go for a surgery for his heart condition and he flares up and gets angry with me. It will be the worst day of my life if I try my best to squeeze out some time to join my college in the inter-college games and turns out that my presence is redundant and they accuse me for not supporting them early and causes them to lose. It will be the worst day for me if I go home to lead the small group to test my level of recovery and I am totally discouraged and sunk back to depression again.
I am not a prophet, I do not know what will happen, but I know that when I cry to the Lord of help, He will heal me (v2). I know that I can give thanks to Him because His saving hands are upon me (v3-4). I know that I may cause Him to be angry of me because of my faithlessness, but His love and favor is with me forever (v5). I know my gracious Lord is my helper (v10), and He will turn my mourning into dancing (v11). Yes, I want to dance with Him. I want to rejoice in His presence. I want to jump with joy for His lovingkindness. I want my Lord!
I am not a dancer. I cannot dance graciously, but I love to be able to express myself in dance. I just love to jump and leap in accordance to my heart beat as a response to God’s rhythm of love and melody of grace. It is not the dancing that I really like, it is the presence of God which I enjoy. In order for me to dance, there must be something to move me, and only the good work of the Lord in my life can motivate me to move my feet and lift my hands and swing my body according to the music of God.
I cannot turn my mourning into dancing, but God can. I cannot control how my father will react when he is to be confirmed to go the surgery, he may scold me or get very depressive, but God can use this episode to draw me closer to my father and my father closer to Him. I cannot be there for my college during the games, and they may lose, but God can teach me to let go, because they win or lose, it’s not about me. I cannot say for sure that I can lead tonight’s small group without feeling drained or discouraged after that, but God can always refill me and remind me that His grace is sufficient for me. All I can do is to take one small step at a time, and God will take a leap for me. Today is a leap day, I pray that my one small step will allow me to see God carrying me for a leap. I cannot turn mourning into dancing, but God can.
Will you dance with Him?
HHS…
Abel…
